You think you can deal with that Sarah?
What is the common denominator? Well, I have to admit. I care for others. You cannot be all these if you simply don't give a fuck.
It turns out that I do give a fuck. That is my Achilles Heel. I care too much. Should I don't give a shit about anybody, I am fully self-sustaining for the rest of my life.
Well I am training myself to [] give a fuck. Let me continue to keep my world small. As a farmer, I only cultivate my little plot of land knowing that at the end of the journey I ended at a place where I don't have to worry about the fate of humanity as a whole.
I just be... After all I had completed what I was set to do. Other than that [] is just a matter of marking time. Time will flow and I will follow. No need for intervention.
What a life:
I fancy being the Queen. She is the ultimate free rider. I think Sarah, I am in that position. I am a Hedonist Hermit. Everything is provided for. What is my job then? Just writing to you. Isn't that the ultimate hedonism? I have everything and yet I don't own anything.
So if the Queen can get away with it, I think I can too. What else can I do? My wives want me to stay put. Even you don't want me to meddle with External Affairs. I can do so much of internet surfing and tv watching. Beyond that I want to be productive. Lizzie's idea is for me to do domestic work. Well I don't mind doing it but that doesn't challenge me intellectually.
As a human being, it is my nature to be a contributor. I still want to make a difference. If I made a difference to just you alone, that is success to me.
I like this guy. He had found his paradise:
My paradise is here. I have no need to be elsewhere. Even now I have not make full use of Bukit Kiara and Lembah Kiara.
As a writer who runs, the landscape of my heaven is inside of me, not a place outside that I have to [] in. Therefore as long as I run, I can always return to this place over and over again regardless of where I am.
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