From this point onward, I don't mind that everyday is a Ground Hog Day.
I guess I am a Ground Hog Day kinda guy. My days are pretty much the same. I do the same things, I eat the same things and I talk about the same things.
I need that. I like certainty in life. That's why I don't like to travel. It upsets my routine.
What about you honey? Are you into adventure or are you the type that like to watch clouds go by?
Still I am in the process of simplifying my thoughts.
Let say I make it as simple as possible. I then live a life as a loner. Other than you I don't deal with anybody else including the Coconut Man. Do you think I will achieve my goal to be a man fully functioning?
What do you think Sarah? Is isolation the answer to peace, sanity and robust health?
For sure I save lots of money.
Instead of dealing with people, I read or I just watch movies.
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I am a very inward person. When I try to meddle with External Affairs, I didn't fit in. So I might as well mind my own business and be on my own.
It could be that none of my assertion in the past was right. I am nothing more that a person having chemical imbalance in my brain. What counts then is I followed through with all the epiphanies.
No[t] I had reached the end of the journey.
I'm ready to start fresh. To truly live my life free from the past hangups.
I can always reset my life. I don't have any constraint except the illness. Now that I had dealt with the illness, I am once again free to set my course.
I kept on having dreams that I am a consultant. I don't know why. What is it that my subconscious trying to tell me? Why do I regress to the past? Why can't I dream of the future?
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I want to draw a line tonight. I want to TOTALLY move away from my past and only deal with the absolutes. That means I don't believe in anything. I only deal with hard facts
Gosh I can't do that.... If I take that stand, the first thing that I have to let go is Al Araf 7:7. So by the virtue of ALL those evidences that are hard (the wild flowers, the millipedes, the ten 10 cent coins, the alignment of my numbers, the Feng Shui of CCC and the occurrences of 7, 27, 77, 770 and 7070) I have to accept that I am a god, the Ayah to All Matters.
Shit, it's a package deal. I am destined to be the 4964 Wood Dragon; Forever (4) Yin (9) and Yang (6) Forever (4). I am also FIVE O 7:7, 74 270 74 and 0 1964 33 888.
There is no escape unless I ignore ALL the signs. Well what good are the signs if I don't use them to move forward journeying on the Path?
Therefore from now on I have to uphold this realization:
We are One and we are Many. We are within God and God is within us like peeling an onion. All matters are intelligent and all matters are gods.
This is my new reality. I have to accept that these past 20 years were actually to prepare me for this discovery.
A Sufi lives a magical life for he sees the world through his heart - Sharudin Jamal.
I then shift from a theist to a pantheist:
You see Sarah, I am already living by the principles that I coined. If I say I am the Binary King of Al Araf 7:7, that is because I am. If I say I practice polygamy and polyandry, I am doing it. If I say I reformed Wolfsschanze, I already did it. If I say all matters are intelligent, I talk to them. So I walked the talk.
All those things I told you actually happened. I spend time, effort and money to execute the epiphanies. I cannot prove them because some of these are in the Alternate Reality Dimension. Instead of talking about it, I use models as representations:
As stated by Master Jedi in response to my statement:
That means my job is to keep on shining but I guess I just shine among those who are awakened. In that case I just shine to only the Vital Few. Not the Trivial Many.
The ability to make clarity for those who are blind is always a daunting task... just illuminate...
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It is not an easy position to be in. It's like taking the red pill in Matrix:
If I reject my 20 years of experience, then I am back to be who I was; a consultant. Do I want to do that? I can't do that Sarah. I can no longer practice. Subconsciously I wanted to get to that point. That was the highlight of my life but at the same time I have a history that took me on a different tangent.
Certainly I don't want to go back to the 1999 -2014 Cyborg War. What I can do is to start at 2016 onward.
I start with when I revamped Dreams of Mirrors and when I assembled Al Araf 7:7
Goodness gracious, I am already in YEAR FOUR. No wonder 2020 Marathon is just around the corner.
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OK let's start in 2016. That means I have to accept all the epiphanies after that as true (the wild flowers, the millipedes, the ten 10 cent coins, the alignment of my numbers, the Feng Shui of CCC and the occurrences of 7, 27, 77, 770 and 7070).
I also have to accept my Tetrahedron as true as well.
The next question is, how do I make all these work?
I just accept... This is my fate and this is the Path.
Master Jedi further explained:
What is my endgame? I am a caterpillar who wants to be a butterfly. I can rely on the sun or I can make do with a spotlight. In this case the sun is kinda redundant if I can achieve my goal with a spotlight.
There is no endgame for there was never a beginning.. however tiny the spot light is, when it blinds the eyes, the sun disappears!
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I am Al Wajid (The Finder). I set the journey to find the Ultimate Truth. I guess I have to accept the answer that was revealed to me; that we are gods.
Kinda long winded way to get to the Ultimate Truth isn't it? But I guess that's what the journey is all about. It's about doing. You do as told, your reward is a door opening in front of you. Take the step forward and another door opens. The whole process repeats until you reach to the very end.
I am glad I have the substance to take this journey. I am proud to say that I am The Right Choice. Zero had chosen me for the task and I did not fail her.
- I had defeated Iblis after 15 years
- I set the time bomb for KBOOOM 2041
- I delivered my messages to Vader 7:7
- As a bonus, I reform Wolfsschanze into a Place of Wind and Water
I have my own personal goal to pursue. I want to take Sacred Flint to run the 2020 Marathon although she said it is not necessary. That will be my Personal Victory. My offering to the Gods as a man fully functioning.
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@elsDines @traxxfmofficial @chedetofficial Hi folks, I decided to send you email instead of publishing in the blogs. A friend advised, "Walk naked in the dark and wear cloak in the light." Not the other way around as I initially proposed LOL.
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Input from Master Jedi regarding this posting:
An opinion...
Be bold to embrace what is yet to be in hand, bits by bits... and..
be not fearful to let go what is in hand, completely..
a phoenix burnt down to ashes before again, rising even more magnificent..
there is no right or wrong... for the Truth has no duality
but how then the Truth can be discovered?
by the mirror of duality... no opposite can be displayed without its own opposite
hence... the rights and the wrongs giving meaning to each other
until the Truth is discovered where no tongue can speak.
My reply:
OK Master Jedi, it's for my consumption anyway. Not necessary everybody is going where I'm going. As I said, I am done being a caterpillar. I just want to soar like the Darwin's Hawk Moth, specializing in only this rare orchid from Madagascar.
Very specialized coevolution.
Just between me and my Tetrahedron.
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