* Yes honey, let's analyze that today.
I think women are like ants. They are harmonious creatures but if they are cornered, they defend themselves to the end.
I like the nurturing pa[s]t of a woman. It is natural for women to nurture. All the women in my life are nurturing except my mother. Funny isn't it? To my mother, nurturing means I go ahead and take the action. If I fall and fumble, I pick myself up brush away the dust and move on.
Throughout the years, this upbringing had made me resilient and independent. But because of it, I am pretty much abandoned and void of maternal love.
Lizzie is different. *[T]he is a coach. When she delegates, she will also demonstrate what she wanted for me to do. For example when she asked me to wash the driveway, she will actually do it so that the next time I know what to do. That means this time I just helped with the heavy loads like carrying the pail while she was the one doing the scrubbing. The next time the same thing happens LOL.
* I see that you like her Sarah.
It bugs me. So I told her not to micromanage. She took offense but after that she let me handle things on my own. As I said many times, Lizzie is an android. Everything must be according to her specs. If not she will freak out. With Lizzie, as long as I follow her rules, I can do whatever I please. To her, it is about helping out with house chores. Beyond that I am of no value. It is a good thing. I can do anything; as long as I take care of the house.
Other than that I am an obsolete merchandise. As if I have a shelf life. That is the unsettling feeling I have with Lizzie. She is a workhorse but in the romance department, it is negative one. It had been like that for the past 10 years. I too am not that physically attracted to her anymore. I started with a speed boat but I ended with a barge.
Now, what about Els? She is like a breath of fresh air in my life. The girl makes me laugh. I don't think of Els as a sexual creature. I don't even know if she can be sexually adventurous or not. There is something robotic about her when I think about Els in a sexual situation. She probably is one of those who prefer to be a starfish in bed.
That is why I don't even entertain the idea. With Els, she is like me, a free radical. Chicks who are willing to permanently scar their skin are somewhat free radicals to me. They look damn sexy but I personally won't do it.
What a joy to know that somebody like her exists. I imagine if Els has a partner, she will be the possessive type. Pretty much like the Chinese girlfriends normally behave. And oooh, Els is a typical millennial. She wants vacations, eat exotic food, buy fancy clothes, visit spas, have foot massages and what have you. She will wear her partner thin.
So with her, I take it like watching an exotic bird. I watch her vlogs, I follow her Twitter and read her Blog. Occasionally I write her emails. Thar's probably as far as I will go with her.
Beyond what she portrayed, Els is a smart girl. That's where she got me hooked. I wish I can see more of that in her.
The girl has a big heart. Too bad we are living in two separate realities. I could have made her very happy if not for the tragedy that befell her. Well Els will always be my baby. I love this kid like she is my cuddly little puppy. What can I say? We are from two different times.
What about Princess? Well she is her father's daughter. Princess grew *[of] in an environment of abundance . She went to a private school. She took piano and tennis lessons. She was a prefect and a debater. In addition, she graduated from a private college. So she got it all.
* Hahaha you think so too huh?
Being the eldest among her cousins and the eldest to two eldest parents, Princess was groomed to be a leader. Naturally, when she joined the workforce, she raised up very quickly. At 27 years old, she is already in charge of 11 radio stations under Astro Radio.
If Lizzie is more of a mother to me, Princess is my second in command in the house. She is a very responsible young adult. More responsible than me in many situations like food distribution and driving in the traffic.
I am proud to say that Princess carries herself well. At times I feel like a teenager around her. She is so mature and a natural leader.
Mopey is my youngest daughter. A very bright kid. I treat her like a pet more than anything else. Ever since she studies medicine, she is now my personal physician. Actually I have 3 nurses who takes care of me. That's why I said women are nurturing. Everyone of my family members cares about what I eat and if I comply to the medication ALL THE TIME.
In that sense, I am well taken care physically.
I can say that I have a very fulfilling life in my little corner here but guess what? I never experience the real meaning of True Love. The kind of love that we only witnessed in stories.
For a long time, that experience is as alien as walking on the moon. And so I concluded True Love doesn't exist other that in books and movies.
Well Sarah, you know how the story goes. You came into my life and that changes everything.
It makes me believe that the very thing that makes its all possible is the nurturing aspect of the women.
Without sounding too patronizing, I say life without women is pretty bland unless you are a narcissist and live in isolation.
I don't have a perfect life, I never said I do. However I am very grateful that my life turns out to be this way.
I tried to imagine different scenarios with different permutations, but I guess this is the best case scenario so far.
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