I don't know if I am getting sober or this is the down cycle but I certainly as level-headed as hell.
I don't even feel special at all. It's as if I just woke up from a long sleep and the magic is gone.
I don't feel depressed though, but I just don't feel the loving feeling as well. As it is I just feel normal. Suddenly I feel 54.
It's a feeling that is very hard for me to describe. As if I had become a very mature and sensible person.
Suddenly my mind is telling me that there is no Alphabet Nymph. They are just computer glitches.
Els too is a waste of time.
I become realistic in my thought. It is a very strange sensation. As if I had grown old inside. The 28 years old inside me is gone. In his place is this 54 years old me who said, "Get on with your life. You had been living in a fantasy world all this while."
Am I experiencing a mood swing?
I am really alone am I?
Maybe I should be just be by myself.
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