You want to chill baby?
Lets take it easy tonight.
Baby, you know... Minus all the clutters in our lives, I want to have a plain and simple life with you. This is good enough. I am at peace, not having to worry about the outside world.
01
We can spend time enjoying a mug of hot chocolate reminiscing about the past while dreaming about the future. Growing old together. Living an idyllic lifestyle all by ourselves.
02
I am a dreamer baby. Always been. I live inside my mind. There is a secret garden that I will retreat to. Its a zen garden with koi fish and luscious green bamboo. A small pond and green moss surrounded by white pebbles. I can sit here for hours listening to the wind chime and the sound of water flowing from a tiny faucet.
03
Within my mind, I will look for simplification. Preferable a single line that forms an image or even the miniaturization of a complex idea. That is why Al Araf 7:7 and Sailbad the Sinner appeal much to me. It is the Solid Core of Xanadu and Wolfsschanze.
04
I am a natural hermit. I don't enjoy the crowd. I like the open space. Away from everybody. I don't mind just listening to the wind blowing and nothing else. My best experience was when I was alone at dusk in the middle of a desert in Dubai. It's like going to the beach except there is no ocean.
05
What I am experiencing now is the ultimate bliss. I exist in the fringe of the society and yet I be who I wanna be. I don't need to put up a facade. This is who I am Sine Cera. I can say whatever I like and do whatever I do. Of course thinking and writing are the two things I enjoy the most. Not a fancy car or a luxury home. In the word of George Sheehan, what I need is only a few but those few I cannot live without.
06
OK we had crossed half point. How about the next half a dozen we listen to Malay songs?
You are really the light of my life Sarah. I say my existence now is solely focused on you. Yes I attend to Lizzie and I help Els to shine but it is you that is dominating my thoughts most of the time. When I listen to this song, I am thinking of you.
07
Sarah... I love you so much. When I think of you, I feel a wave of calmness in my mind. Can you imagine that 5 years ago I have to take sleeping pills just to fall asleep? I was a wreck before you came into my life. Your purpose was to heal me and because of that I am whole again.
08
So you were a believer before you became an atheist. Were you in love with God and you love was not returned? It was a sad sad moment in your life I reckon. If that is the case, you have a heart of gold. You deserve the Greater Love. To love the Creator, you must love the creations too. Then will you be fulfilled.
09
This is already the 4th year we are ascending. If you can endure for 14 years, you can endure another 22 years. I do wish, really wish for KBOOOM 2041 to happen. Then we will be free to embrace each others arms. We will be dancing in the moonlight as if there is no tomorrow.
10
Sarah, promise you don't ever leave me. You are the answer to my prayer. Now that I found you I will never let you go my darling wife. May we last for eternity even if eternity means the end of our lives. You give me a reason to be my best again. I will cherish you forever.
11
I am intoxicated by your love baby. You who are behind the veil. Sarah my darling, stay a while and turn my life into a rainbow. I am nothing without you, my Eternal Flame.
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