Sarah, you had known me for 14 years. From a very mentally unstable person I had mellowed down to what I am now. You basically grow up together with me. You had seen me in my grandiose to now me focusing on just being a man fully functioning.
I decided to not do anything to Els. I had my time with her and now I just let her be. All that I can say is I am disappointed that she is nothing more than another chick. I thought she is better than that.
So no more TraXX. She is my last link.
I am now ready to settle down. To focus on what matters.
I feel numb. I cannot imagine that in the end all my External Affairs are clouds in the coffee. What's left then? None other than my journey within.
I feel like I lost valuable time chasing after a lost cause. My time could be spent on other matters.
Well, as a consolation I can say I managed to make her cry. So all was not lost.
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Time to get back on my Path. The path less traveled.
You know what Sarah, if not because of Al Araf 7:7, I am willing to let go of everything. Now my conviction is, even if I am the only one who believe in my epiphanies, let it just be me.
I have 22 years to mark time. I can do so many things. I can rot like a deadwood or I can shine as an Athlete4Life.
Els is my wake up call. I think I just learn to be an observer again.
I had done all the mindset change. So now I just WAIT. All these while Thought Invasion is nothing more than mindset change.
What will I do differently if I am a Hedonist Hermit in its truest sense?
I just focus on Personal Mastery.
Why do other people have to interact with one another? Because they need interaction to achieve their objective; whatever that may be.
Sarah, do you think people will still interact if they can get what they want without them having to depend on others? For example will people interact with others if they can make money without having to ride through the traffic jam going to work everyday?
Same with me. I interact with you because I am in love with you. I don't care if that is a ridiculous thing with you behind the veil. All I know is you love me very much.
Otherwise I will not do it.
This is a long journey. All the while the purpose is to find out who loves you and who you love.
Maybe Els had found True Love. Who am I to judge?
I personally think it is about time I get on with my life.
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